I Feel…

I realize I’ve neglected this blog for the past couple of weeks.  I don’t know that I have much to write other than an update on how things have been going since I’ve been home from the hospital.  So here goes that…

I came home last Friday, which was great.  Since I’ve been home, I’ve been physically alright.  I don’t know that I’m back to full strength, but I’ve been feeling stronger since I’ve been home.  It’s been great being able to eat, and due to the fact that I lost so much weight, I’ve been trying to gain a little back.  Trying to gain weight definitely isn’t the worst thing in the world.  I’m supposed to go back in the hospital tomorrow for another chemo treatment.  I’ll be in there for about 4 days.  I’m not happy about that, but that’s what’s happening.

In happier news, I should finally be finished with all of my schoolwork within the next 2 weeks.  I finished some things up and then found out I’m much closer than I thought.  Basically, when I’m done with this round of chemo, I have probably 2 hours or less of work and a phone call to make.  That’s pretty exciting.  I don’t like chemo at all, but graduating is a really happy thought.

So currently, I’d say I’m still in recovery mode… I feel like there’s more of me that is recovering right now than just my physical body.  I told Brad about a week ago (when I got home) that I felt like my spiritual checking account was overdrawn at the moment.  That’s not a doctrinal statement… it’s just where I was.  I don’t feel the same as I did then.  I’m not exactly sure how to describe how I feel within that analogy.  I’m doing well though because I recognize that hope lives, and that’s a big deal.  I hope no one gets annoyed with all the talk about hope.  I have even more to say about it and about how hopelessness is really unnecessary and I might be partially responsible whenever it exists around me… but that’s for later.

~ by leemyers on September 15, 2008.